new years eve eve, it's still this year

so, tomorrow will be the same as any other tomorrow aside from the fact that tomorrow i don't have to work. tomorrow is friday - which of course is the start of a weekend and as so many recognize, the start of a new year. now, should i be celebrating? is there something so celebratory about a new year? why is it that everyone feels like they can start all over again? why is this a reason to forget the past. why couldn't they forget the past last week? why can't i forget the past now? or 5 minutes ago? why is society run on time? WHY? why is new years run on a time based lie?

here's my plan... or was my plan. to be celebratory with my boyfriend of nearly 2 years. though - as of right now at 4:39 pm i don't have plans. i broke them off. i haven't been feeling great the last week, financially i don't want to pay someone i don't know who also doesn't know my son - to watch him. aside from that, the crap to go through with people who are drunk. have you ever been around drunk people on this date? they are insane. now, mind you i've been that person...many times...well, ok - not many..but at least twice.. or three times. aside from that factoid, they're annoying. most especially when you don't drink or ...*when i don't drink* people hugging, drooling, slobbering, talking, making false promises to take down your number and hang out or be friends or buy you drinks. my nearly fool proof plan in the past has been to walk around with water and have the bar tender stick a cherry in it. everyone believes it is vodka. :) oh - and never let anyone taste!

so, just a bit 'o venting on my part.... needing to just speak or type. perhaps I can find more reasons to do this consistently. I need to, really.

Bloggity blog... peace out. I'll be typing soon!